iluvafi

I'm trying to fight this thing called personality
Mine sucks

Im learning chemistry today with Hen. Calcium carbonate
im going to have gas he says.
ilovehenrysura

we skated down the beach & then set pics of an ex, on fire by home depot
but now I hate myself bc of it, after doing that i got this horrible feeling in me & i hate this feeling... I love him so much more than burnt pictures boy, but I dont know how to tell him that.
I was young, I made a mistake. What I thought was love back then was all a big deception & I stupidly fell for it.
The saying the past comes back to haunt you really is true bc its hurting me now,horribly, when I was the happiest I've ever been. Thats over.
& it ended w the pity kiss on the cheek.

he confuses me by blowing me off, then saying <3
tj.gay.
christmas shopping not done
school is so so.
NJ is possibly off
im happy none the less

blahblahblah i need to update this thing, tomm, too tired for this tonight

i thought i got fired tonight, but i didnt
my manager went off on how 20 people a day come in for a job, & im just always talking.give me a damn break phillips. i get payed next to nothing while you walk around fat and happy for $25 an hour, yeah id take my job a little more serious too if i got paid that decent.
& i forgot to call the lady from first coast medical like i was supposed to. i just keep blowing chances of suceeding.
im thinking of a major change from dentistry,maybe back to the whole hair styling thing again. im so confused what to do.
My cars almost fixed! It needs a realighnment & paint job, before i drive it.Ill be driving more careflly from now on, & with no boys in it.

Turkey Day was delectable! First i went walking w my brother around 9 & then like me & 20 family members went to this fancy resturant & we spent $700 on food that tasted like crap.
But i got to dress up like a 50's mom!
I really dont like it here in New Orleans, my cousins bf called me gothic i was like umm ok. Everyone is so weird. & my whole family on my moms side is obsessed w drama, & its really annoying, i cannot wait to get home!
Plans include making up the formal i missed w henry & his friends & celebrating our 2 months, since im going to miss it being here.

Oh yeah & major for FCCJ : Pre-Dentistry

progress reports came out & mine are the best ever!!

almost straight B's except for 2, which should be soon.

Pretty much my life is school, well School bus then to school..

In a sort of stupid dumb way im thankful i wrecked, my grades have improved bc all i do is study in the library & i have no ways of skipping.Ive learned who my REAL friends are, & bc i bum rides off everyone, i havent spent a dime since the accident & i checked the bank this morning & ive never seen this many G's!!

thinking of getting rid of my new-er tattoo.
it is nice, & it does describe the way i am now but
1)i think in some situations the best way to prove something true-to-heart, is without anyone knowing, except yourself.
2)i dont do any drugs or alcohol..blah blah blah but i am NOT "edge"i dont care to be
Big waste of time & money.
Tonight he said i complete his heart?
i like him like too much for 3 weeks, my days have been perfect w him but i have that feeling that comes everytime everythings good, the one where you know your at the highest point & you know the only way to go now is down..so im frantically trying to find something a little wrong so this will all stay right.
tj came back to school,finally but i really need sleep now

all i wanted to do today was come home & study,stupid bitch.

me and Henry went and got my oil changed today, then he took me out to eat, then i had to go to work..
i havent liked someone this much since..like 2 years ago.

he surprised me again, with his adorable soasin shirt i love,
we were going to have our "first kiss" but then he missed my lips & kissed my nose?!
& me being a stuckup jerk said "you kissed my nose, stupid".
I feel reallly bad, & its all i can think about right now, so i had to write it...
im not going to be able to sleep tonight.

i will remember this as the best night of my life so far.
Ive never happily cryed so much...

look what me & you have become

i think this is where i want to be.

i get to stay.
today was usual
went to school,paid attention for once, then found out i was failing alg : /
chilled w korey then went home & my new adhd medicine got the best of me & i slept for like 5 hours, then went to the mall w amanda.
yesterdays visit to the doctors scared me enough, so im done doing anything illegal as of..tomm.
Time to grow up & get over that, im done w that phase for good, i hope.
time to study & make good choices

"your 18,im sweeping u under the rug & forgetting you Dana"
i brought some friends over today & she flipped & told me you dont "hang out" anymore at 18..
i have to pack & leave, shes threatened this for so long & now she really can..i just didnt think it would be the 3rd day i was 18
i went & got boxes, & i guess my residence is ericas for a while until i can find someone to move in an apartment w but noones old enough.
it sucks when the person you thought u loved the most deserts you.

i need a senior quote...by tomm
so my moms online finding a success quote for ME haha
talk about failure.

I got some dunkin doughnuts this morning & then hung out w tj, bc he couldnt work in the rain.
Hes drunk right now & cant talk, how is it everyone i know & care about seems to be turning into basic alcoholics.
My best friend got a gf so now he cant find time to call me.
im supposed to be leaving on Mon for Louisiana w my mom
& im getting braces lol invisible ones of course.

That was one big waste of time
Hes so over me,its not even funny
& his new habits outright worry me, i wish i didnt care.

i got my teeth cleaned tho : )